{PROLOGUE}

I hate and love the same stuff.
I'm probably just like you.
Only everything you're not.
Omg,does that even make sense?
Yes!

*loves:
{the rain
{the reflections
{the youth
{the agility
{the high
{the playgrounds

*loathes:
{plastics
{boot-lickers
{sister's watch
{back aches
{bugs

{WISHLIST}

i don't ask for much but,
high-flier
bedroom decorations
certain japanese comics and series
baudelaire series
more mercy
promised good life
{FELLOWS}

{CREDITS}


 Afianne
 Blogskins.com
 Moargh.de
Romance Box
 Getty
 
{BYGONE}}

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Thursday, December 28, 2006
I was bored because i couldn't find a poem for poverty for lit,
So instead of finding i decided to write one. But not about poverty.
HAHA!

My dying child

On bent knees, I placed my hands together,
Searching the heavens in the falling rain;
Why, God, is this the way of life?
Is this your way of ending pain?

Of a little soul who promised us joy,
When a thousand words cannot be said;
Yet you presented me, with much unfairness,
With a promise that was never made.

How could the world still spin?
When a infant will be taken this summer?
So I braced with a dying child of mine
For comes the start of our eternal slumber.



5:49 AM

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Just swing, just swing and never look back,
Stretch your hands and take it all;
But as heaven's tears fell onto dirt,
She stops.
She knew what it's like to fall.

Unlike what she thought, the world had failed her,
A life with existence of a zone;
But even if nothing was meant for her,
She conquered with faith alone.



5:08 AM

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Monday, December 25, 2006
The animes and mangas i grew up with:




The magical princess i was dying to be when i was 5,
Red Riding Hood Akazukin Cha Cha





Ahh yes, the man who talks fast without moving his mouth..
Speed Racer



Still, the best anime i've ever came across,
Cardcaptor Sakura



The first manga i've ever read. Nothing special but still,
Love For Venus



The one I'm currently on to. I think im beginning to like this one a lot.
Tsubasa RESERvoir of CHRoNiCLE



8:03 PM

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3 relaxing days in Bedok makes me more sane (:
That's because i bought 2 volumes of Tsubasa!!
Yeaahhh baby i'm onto Tsubasa now. But seriously, the anime stinks.
Sakura's anime's the best!! Aww i wanna go comic spree with xuan.
And there's just so much books i wanna read.
I realised there's 2 more books from Ahern that i haven't got my hands on.
Plus For One More Day by Mitch Albom,
My Best Friend's Girl, My Godmother all these books I WANNA READ.

Well anyway, sec one registration wasn't bad at all! except for the last part i got bored.
So did Haslinda. G1's nice, i love my junior classes although sometimes err..
Well Aisyah, Has and i spotted some look and act alikes from that class.
Very much like the 2g1 we have now. Amazing how the school classifies us.
I'm a little worried about cheer - they only have 3 days and the first day
we cant do much, making the situation quite pathetic, really.
There's one thing that i'm hoping i'll get:

Please, god, make me a peer leader for 1G1. Please?

HA! Im gonna finish my math today and that'll be the end of homework.
Listen to that?
IM QUEEN OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!
And im gonna buy 2 more Tsubasa books soon. This week. For my birthday.
With my own money. Don't wanna burden my parent.
Guess that since im growing up, i might as well be a little more independent.
So i'll save up to June to buy more books, then save up to Nov to buy more books.
Best plan i've thought of, yet. Though i'll be waiting quite a while, I think it's worth it.

Forget 1st of Jan. I'm still in 2006 (:



7:47 PM

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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
This was something that happened yesterday.
I just need a place to have it out.

Family Roles

Time is passing and you're still not home.
The absence of mom too, makes me worry.
Something might happened. I didn't want to think.
So I sat on the couch, staring at my feet and wait.
Just wait.

Mother came back and I told her of my worry.
She smiled.
A tale she told about my father at work. A frown.
Not long, he came back; he looked just the same.
Smiling and carrying an infant in his arms.
Hugging him, I said hello and he beamed.
Excusing himself to talk to mom, I walked out of the room.
Fast, but not fast enough to hear:

Today is one of the worst office days of my life.

And this is the man who hid it all,
Just to give his children some faith.
This is the one who stood up for what he wanted,
Be brave and put his family before him.
He was the father who's a man of few words,
But gave us protection aplenty.

And this is me, the daughter of that man,
feeling his hardships throughout.
I closed the gate,
And locked the door;
And protect him from the world.



1:13 AM

*****

O YAY! i love love love family days, man!
No nothing, just the 6 of us having the time of our lives together.
And watching our Misha progressing into an unbelievable cute infant.
Yes, i do believe in family love, i do! i do! I felt it anyway.
Avillion is womg. awesomeh! and my parents just cant stop praising them.
Ugh, never heard them praise so much about me, the sexy! I did batik painting!!
It's so preeeetty, really! It was my first time and it's already woah.
Maybe i'll post the pictures next time. HAHA! who's the best? ME!
And premium water chalet is so beautiful (I found the encouragement to bathe in the bathroom)
because it's so beautiful. i love the sunset. There was pink in the sky and for once,
I found the pink so beautiful. Amazing experience.
Then Farmosa came (my father's company's holiday getaway, eventually.
Who's the organiser?! I hate him.)
The condominium apartment, where we were suppose to stay in,
was HORRIBLE. And the curtains? IT BURRRRRRNNNNSSSSSS!
The rotan chair was disgusting and it was so bare!
It's a frightening thing to even sit on it, let alone sleep in the bed.
The air con flap had to be hold still by stuffing a cigarette box in between.
Dont get me started on toilet.
The bungalow wasn't any better either. There was no water in one toilet.
To sum it up:
The toilet couldn't flush.
The horror.
That's why we didnt stay there. So my father drove out to find another
hotel (we were the only ones with a car, considering we were from avillion)
and we took 3 hours to find a last minute hotel. Reinassance was the name.
The blanket was nice.
Altogether it was a successful holiday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MAMA!
Hope ayah's gift to you (avillion) was a beautiful one. duh.



12:56 AM

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Saturday, December 09, 2006
Dear Khaliesah,

Hahaha! Oh man i really did did did have a big shock that we'd be going to the same hotel, same date, same are. But yeah, everything went whacko when your parents decided to change the date. And now all our hopes gone to waste. We're both crushed but YANOW, i think everything will be alright. Like you said, it'll still be fun, with us two together but like i said, it doesnt mean no fun with just you and just me. Must promise me you'll have fun okay? Then we'll go share photos and memories when you and i get back to Singapore later. and who knows if i'll leave something behind, somewhere and then you'll find it HAHAHA! go to the beach! i'll go dig something, write a letter out of the hotell paper and bury it! TREASURE! i hope you're happier, knowing that i was there and you'll be there too. A date?! Call 1800-IM ON.


Dear Haslinda,
Cheer up, bud, get a very good rest everytime and please dont go worryinag about the blog. You know your rest more important than some blog. Let someone else do it. Dont ask me who will. Listen, you better get some break before sec 3 starts, or you're gonna regret it. Go into a circular room and find a corner to sit and chill (: Love you, always!

Dear Yuni,
Yeah, it's been a very very very long time, i didnt know what happened. And i hope you're doing fine, it doesnt seem as though you are. But maybe that's just me. I still havent forgotten what we shared last time, no no no (((: But seriously, i hope we'll be building a friendship, just like before. Slowly. Am not giving false hopes anymore. We're starting over, and that's just fine.

Dear Nikki,
OH MY GOD HOW COULD YOU MISS WATCHING SPIRIT?! i want the cd please? burn for me? Andddd then i'll love you (:

This night's not meant for many.
That's why i'm gonna punch the fan.



6:45 AM

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